It's 1am already, i'm freaking tired after the late movie but i'm still up awake.
It's been troubling me so much, I don't know what to do. Oh no, i know exactly how i should handle it in an ideal way, but that's just in theory. We've learnt so much, what we ought to do, ought to be... But in real life, things doesn't go your way. They are complex, uncertain, superficial...
I thought that the seventeen year old me is realistic enough already. That I've been through such heartaches and so, I'll never let it happen to me again. That I've been watching my friends crumble and fall and so, I'll know the right remedy to cure.
As much as I tried to convince myself that these are true, and that i'm strong and brave enough already, I can't deny my heart. I still suck at it.
Guess that's life. Even though you know that it's gonna hurt so bad, you still will go for it.
Even though it's gonna fail, you still will pin high hopes on it.
But it's okay, just go ahead with it. Even though I can't exactly settle for "at least, you tried your best" as a form of consolation, I think that this is a mean to not let your heart down.
Cry when you're sad, shout when you're angry.
Oh yeah and this:

"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours."

Have been echoing in my mind.